|This is one of my favorite photographs of all time. |
I am sorry that I didn’t post last week...but only a little sorry because I had the rare and awesome privilege of spending some real quality time with my best friend celebrating our 20 years of friendship. I would blog about that but we pinky swore we’d never tell any of each other’s secrets but I can tell you this...
As we sat and caught up, I was reminded of how much it can hurt to grow up and how much it means to have a friend or two by your side. I was reminded of other friends that I have since lost touch with, and some who I see occasionally. I wrote this for them, and for myself.
You had another life once. A long time ago. It’s hard to remember now. It seems almost unreal between the diapers and the sleep schedules. You had a life where you were only responsible for you. You were so funny, and shy, and spontaneous. You spent your mornings catching up on teenage romances in the offing, and your afternoon at practice, running till your lungs burned and then running some more. And then the fun, yes there was the homework but somehow that always got squeezed in between the ice cream runs, the movie nights, the skinny dipping, the AIM chats, and the bonfires. But above all, there was prayer. I’m not sure where I would be if not for your prayers. Remember that.
We had a life together once. We were so young, and all we wanted was to know God’s will, to lead exciting lives that brought glory to him. We really wanted that.
|I'm pretty sure no one looks their best in this pic but I just love the people in it.|
We didn’t know that we were already on the adventure. We were so curious about what was to come. And had we known, we may have turned back. But we didn’t---not in the face of friends lost, not when our hearts were broken, not when we had to wait and wait and wait for what seemed a simple pleasure or even a God given right. We didn’t turn back because neither height, nor depth, not even anxiety disorders or broken families can separate us from God’s love. As Peter said, “Where would we go? What would we do?”
And so in the dark hours when our wounds would not stop oozing, we went back to prayer. And on our knees our hearts began to heal. All that rejection, all that disappointment, all those we’ve lost began to wash away until we came clean again. In older, stretched and injured bodies our hearts are still young. Laughter and faith keeps them that way.
I miss you my friend. When we are together I remember what friendship is all about, the adventure. The pursuit of holiness, not for ourselves (although, we have sworn to enjoy the ride) but for His glory, for His kingdom come, for a LOVE that heals and restores and reunites.