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Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Better Late Than Never by Marion Dietrich
I love this post by my amazing mother...hope it inspires you as much as it did me.
It had been almost four years since Anne came screeching into the world. Joe and I had pretty much adjusted to the fact that there would be only two delights to fill our life. Miscarriages and lateness of years had stamped me unfertile. Unashamed thankfulness bathed us for the two perfect daughters who already graced our home and we were moving on to another chapter, another scenario, another stage of life. And then it happened. Katie and Anne were over the moon and voted for a puppy or an older brother! But God had something else in mind. A little sister would be coming in fall and we were all amazed at the miracle of changed plans and interrupted cycles.
Miraculous from the start, she came 3 weeks early and was still over 9 pounds. The other two had been quickly delivered, but this one…she had a mind of her own even in the womb. After the arrival, I was hurtled into severe postpartum, which lasted not for days, nor months, but years. My recollection of my newborn are sparse and blurred. Thankfully, there were other mothers who could swaddle her, bathe her, feed her. And Joe became Mr. Mom. My only goal was solitary and distinct…to survive another day. One clarion memory trumpets from the fog of that past. It entails me fretting that I would never live to care for her past the age of 2.
Tomorrow is her birthday. And twenty-two will be her age. Tears rim my eyes at the grace of living to see her grow and flourish. The nightmare of the past never completely forgotten, but eclipsed by the brilliance of the difference her life has made. I am young because she is young. I am gloriously happy because she glories in who God has created her to be. I am fiercely protective because now I am able to be, and her road has not been smooth, her path has not been clear, her way has not been easy. But she has overcome because He, knowing that the world would bring her tribulation, has overcome. Kind, compassionate, hilarious, sensitive, amazingly thoughtful, a servant, an athlete, a sculptor, a sister, an aunt, a friend, but most of all my cherished daughter she dances through this life sprinkling wonder on all she touches.
Happy Birthday, Janie. Oh the plans He has for you now…how humbled I am to be here to witness them.